The feeling of leaving behind the home maybe that's what I wanted the most, maybe that's the biggest relief moving away from home, maybe it will be little peaceful away from all the drama where no one wants me but maybe somewhere in the little corner of my heart I always wanted to feel where I cry like others when they are first away from their home in their youth, where they have the feeling never wanting to get away from the home, where they miss their parents but I never had these kind of feelings no one even came to drop me to my college where everyone parents came to drop them I am the one who just came without having all this all alone like a person sitting alone on the bench in the night without any company.
Maybe people think I am crazy my heart is made of stone that I never felt any of these never had a feeling to go back to home during holidays where all students go back to their homes but sometimes while seeing other kids with their parents I cried a lot as I thought maybe or if I also had this but I made my mind so strong that after sometime it doesn't matter to me and I left all the hopes and expectations that I can ever have all these human feelings and accepted the fact that it is how it is and nothing can ever change and maybe we can't get everything in our life and made my little heart to understand and make it quiet by saying the same and starting living with the time.
I hope no one has ever have to feel all this because it is harder than it seems and not everyone can handle it all alone.