It feels like I have come too far from my feelings, standing under the drizzling rain looking like the sky is crying. But I am too alone that no other human being is found by my side. It is like the darkness that surrounds me. But why does this dark night, with the moon hidden in the sky, not seem really dark?
When I look around, there seem to be two objects around me — a dim street light and a bench. It feels like they are also like me, too alone in the dark night with a dark sky. It's like they are also waiting for someone who might accompany them, but they forgot that in the darkest night even our own shadow doesn't accompany us. All we are left with is the darkness within, looking for a light, a hope that even just for one moment we can be away from the darkness that we have around us.
But one thing that makes this dark night beautiful is the waves of the sea that are coming and going back. It's like they also wanted to say something, something like don't worry, one day like the waves go back to the place they belong, one day we might also find a place where we belong. In so much chaos in my mind, with so much darkness, after seeing and listening to the sound of waves, it feels so peaceful in the heart that I can breathe even after closing the eyes without any fear.
After all, I have all the company that made the night peaceful, even though it seems dark, but it is less dark than the darkness that I am already in. It feels like in this dark night those who feel lonely are together, accompanying each other in a way that can't be seen or felt from the distance.
Well, I am just sitting on the bench, looking at the street light with sky, moon, and the sea. It feels like we all feel less lonely in this way.
So never think that you are all alone in the darkness. Things that might not be alive are more alive than all the living beings. It's just that we need to feel and hear, it might let you feel less lonely and alone in this big world.
It's contradictory to say that I hope that you do find a place where you can feel all the liveliness of these non-living things, but at the same time I still hope that you never have to be in my position.